My life being the oldest sibling

Growing up as the oldest child in a family is a hard thing to do. A lot of people think it’s all difficulties and work for the oldest child; in fact, most people believe that they often don’t get what they want, they can’t get away with anything, and they always get in trouble. Although it’s complicated, I still find it unique to be born as the oldest child in the family. My journey being the oldest child was quite different from other children. I did not receive enough love from my parents when I was young, and I was treated differently from my siblings. There was no true definition of happiness for me and nobody knew how I felt to be the oldest.

As the oldest, it was difficult to get my parents to spend time with me. Instead, I would hear things like: “spend your time wisely, I need to feed your younger brothers or I need time with your brothers.” It was tremendously hard for me to cope with the situation because I was not too far ahead of my brothers’ age during that time. I was still a kid who needed time to stay close to my parents. My youngest brother is six years younger than I am, and my other younger brother is only three years apart from me…that did not make my parents wanted to spend much time with me. I had a lot of moments with my parents when I was younger, and they were remarkable times. But one thing that separated us apart was when I began elementary school. The transience of my happiness began to fade away.

Things got worse. I needed to wake up early every single morning to get myself ready for school, and came back home every late afternoon. The only time I met my parents was night time, but still, we did not talk to each other much. I felt parentless as a young child. I was not able to express my feelings toward them because I was not confident enough to spit it out. I would spend time with my brothers whenever I felt lonely because they were super adorable when they were young, and I loved to tease them so much. However, there were moments when I made my youngest brother cry, and they stared directly at me with their aggressive and angry expressions on their faces. It hurt me even more and it made my relationship with my parents became more fragile.  

Even though I was raised differently from my younger brothers, I’m so privileged to be born as the oldest child in my family. Being the oldest is hard but throughout this unique experience, it silently taught and trained me to live independently. I was brave enough to ask my parents about my childhood, and I was surprised by their answers. My parents planned and raised me intentionally differently from my brothers because they wanted to teach me self-sufficient-life-lesson. I was always thinking negatively towards my parents as I grew older. However, by knowing the truth about the way my parents treated me, I couldn’t love them more!

Most importantly, it felt hopeless to be the oldest sibling because I was frequently given the most responsibility. At the same time, it felt great to be the oldest because I got to set many rules for my brothers, and they have to listen to me because if not they will get in trouble with my parents. In addition, I love to be the oldest sibling in the family for all these reasons but the best reason is to see my parents love me and my brothers equally.

My First College Essay Writing

The Real Me

I’ve never been comfortable speaking in public. It made me worried whenever my teachers appointed me to talk to strangers. It even made me nervous whenever my parents persuaded me to converse with any of my relatives that I’ve never met before. I liked being shy and quiet because I was an introverted person.

I never wanted to leave my comfort zone. I always tried to avoid publicity, I can always be found somewhere else on the side, at the corner of the classroom, and at the back of the desks. I did not want to attract too much attention to strangers. Thus, I preferred solitude.         

But, that is not who I am now. I hated being who I was, and I was tired of hiding myself from this interactive world. I always dreamt of escaping the silence, and last year, I finally did it. It all started in a debate class.

Defeated by the other team during my debate class over the topic I fascinated was a nightmare; I was not satisfied. I felt despondent after the debate because I did not participate as much as I wanted. I had a multitude of ideas in my brain, but bashfulness prevented me from speaking. There were moments where I was not able to articulate my ideas because I was scared that they were all wrong.   

What happened? I was not completely an introvert.  That momentous loss changed everything. I started to occasionally talk to my debate teacher for tips and I began to participate more in later debates.  Boldness was now part of my new character, and it was at that moment when I betrayed my old self to stand up and speak with confidence during the next debate.  I identified something different and I found it exhilarating to speak in front of people.  It was not the end. There were moments in that specific debate where I forced myself to ask the opposing team various relevant questions, which I did, and even defended my team from them with heroism.

If I had succeeded rather than failed, I would have changed and learned nothing. I spoke up because I wanted to change.  There is no shame in trying to change, but there is shame in never trying.

I chose and made many more incredible changes in my life. By my innate challenges [the old shy me] I already understood the disadvantages of not speaking in public. It trapped my voice and prevented me from speaking to the world. I was not able to make friends. Then, right after I had overcome this immense setback, I began to discover something about myself: I had a talent. A talent that defined the real me.  A talent that motivated me to express my own words. A talent that assisted me in making new friends. I was able to manipulate this talent in any conversation.

At the end of the debate class, I became the person that I wanted to be. I started to discover my own voice. The voice that is important for who I am, the voice that I always wished and asked for. I had won my personal challenge, however, without realizing this obstacle, I would still be the old me that never wanted my voice to be heard by the world. Most importantly, the whole transformation taught me to see the importance of reaching my potential. I hope, through this careful open-mindedness to change, that I can continue to make many more adaptations throughout my life.      

Literacy

Literacy is a really tough class for me to handle since it’s an ESL to me. I’ve been working on improving many skills: writing, speaking (fluency), and other skills that are relevant to literacy. I perpetually use many online resources to develop these skills, and it encompasses Khan Academy, Newsela, and other free available sites.    

A few weeks ago, I was given an assignment by my literature teacher to write a short poem, and mine was about the Christchurch mosque shootings in New Zealand.

  • Hate is the darkest force the world has ever known
  • Hate comes from the difference in skin color, the difference in belief, and the difference in gender    
  • As a result, hate causes great suffering, violent discrimination, and lots of death
  • Hate is the murderer to millions of innocent people
  • Those innocents who died from hatred are us
  • They are us
  • They belong to this world, too!
  • There is always an option in life
  • To show compassion not discrimination
  • To show love not hate
  • The world, in fact, would be peaceful if there was never hate  
  • I’m here in front of you today to tell you that hate can be overcome
  • Because once we show love, people will always remember what we’ve done  
    • Now, take a moment to close your eyes to show respect and love to those 50 innocent people who got killed from hatred in New Zealand

Besides the poem, I love to read news about world current events and science articles. Newsela has everything, I really enjoy reading its articles since it comes with different reading levels; I can pick a level that’s reasonable for me, and it has various quizzes that I can do to reflect on my reading. It also comes with many other awesome functions and activities.

          

We also use Commonlit for reading and answering questions.  

I also use this site to develop my vocabulary skill.

 

Introduction to Statistics

In our math class for this term, we are now advocating ourselves to become experts on the complex topic called Statistics. Our handsome math teacher, Jeff, divided the topic into smaller units so that the students are able to learn it at their own pace. Jeff designates us to complete various Statistics unites on Khan Academy−it’s also a huge part of our grade for this term.  

Statistics is a topic that is quite different from others; it is more challenging and critical. The whole idea of statistics is not only about calculating the number, but it is also about how we use our language to elaborate on our answers in a precise way.    

 

Khmer Poem Activity

I have written my own poem in Khmer and it is about how my life has changed when I came to the Academy. I was so emotional when I first started to write the poem because it reminded me of my life without this amazing place. 

ជីវិតខ្ញុំ

ជីវិតកើតមកខកចិន្តា កើតក្នុងគ្រួសារដែលគ្មានសុខ

ជាតិមុខចាំជាតិរំពឹងទុក ចង់បានក្តីសុខក្នុងជាតិនេះ ។

 

ហេតុអ្វីជីវិតកើតខុសគេ មានពុកមានម៉ែតែគ្មានព្រទ្យ

តំណើរជីវិតត្រូវពង្រាត់ ក៏ព្រោះតែទ្រព្យត្រូវព្រាត់ប្រាស់ ។

 

ប្រវត្តិជីវិតដ៏សែនខ្មៅ ឈឺដូចដំបៅដែលធ្វើទុក្ខ

ជីវិតគ្មានព្រទ្យគ្មានក្តីសុខ គ្មានអ្នកយល់មុខព្រោះគ្មានសក្តិ ។

 

ដំណើរជីវិតខ្មៅមួយនេះ បង្រៀនឲខ្ញុំចេះខំប្រឹង

ចេះសា្តប់ទូន្មានចេះញញឹម ហើយចេះសង្ឃឹមលើខ្លួនអែង ។

 

ដល់ថ្នាក់ទីបួនខ្លួនសប្បាយ ជីវិតនឿយណាយត្រូវបាត់បង់

បានប្រឡងជាប់ដោយការខំ ធ្វើមិនបន្លំព្រោះខ្ញុំរៀន។

 

នេះហើយជីវិតរបស់ខ្ញុំ ខំប្រឹងសណ្តំសណ្តាប់រៀន

កែប្រែជីវិតពីអត់ឃ្លាន មកផ្គុំហើយច្រៀងកែវាសនា ។

 

Literacy Unit-American History

Part of the Literacy class this year, we started learning about the American history by reading a myriad of interesting texts. Our facilitator, Cara, gives us the printed-texts because she wanted us to practice our annotation skills so that we can implement it to the upcoming SAT test. For each text, Cara designates us to find the words that we struggle with, and we have to find the meaning for each word and use it in a sentence.

Excerpt From The Jungle is my favorite text of all because after reading the text, I always wonder about where my food comes from.

The Jungle: With one member trimming beef in a cannery, and another working in a sausage factory, the family had a first-hand knowledge of the great majority of Packingtown swindles. For it was the custom, as they found, whenever meat was so spoiled that it could not be used for anything else, either to can it or else to chop it up into sausage. With what had been told them by Jonas, who had worked in the pickle rooms, they could now study the whole of the spoiled-meat industry on the inside, and read a new and grim meaning into that old Packingtown jest—that they use everything of the pig except the squeal.

Jonas had told them how the meat that was taken out of pickle would often be found sour, and how they would rub it up with soda to take away the smell, and sell it to be eaten on free-lunch counters; also of all the miracles of chemistry which they performed, giving to any sort of meat, fresh or salted, whole or chopped, any color and any flavor and any odor they chose. In the pickling of hams they had an ingenious apparatus,1 by which they saved time and increased the capacity2 of the plant—a machine consisting of a hollow needle attached to a pump; by plunging this needle into the meat and working with his foot, a man could fill a ham with pickle in a few seconds. And yet, in spite of this, there would be hams found spoiled, some of them with an odor so bad that a man could hardly bear to be in the room with them. To pump into these the packers had a second and much stronger pickle which destroyed the odor—a process known to the workers as “giving them thirty per cent.” Also, after the hams had been smoked, there would be found some that had gone to the bad. Formerly these had been sold as “Number Three Grade,” but later on some ingenious person had hit upon a new device, and now they would extract the bone, about which the bad part generally lay, and insert in the hole a white-hot iron. After this invention there was no longer Number One, Two, and Three Grade—there was only Number One Grade. The packers were always originating such schemes—they had what they called “boneless hams,” which were all the odds and ends of pork stuffed into casings; and “California hams,” which were the shoulders, with big knuckle joints, and nearly all the meat cut out; and fancy “skinned hams,” which were made of the oldest hogs, whose skins were so heavy and coarse that no one would buy them—that is, until they had been cooked and chopped fine and labeled “head cheese!”

It was only when the whole ham was spoiled that it came into the department of Elzbieta. Cut up by the two-thousand-revolutions- a-minute flyers, and mixed with half a ton of other meat, no odor that ever was in a ham could make any difference. There was never the least attention paid to what was cut up for sausage; there would come all the way back from Europe old sausage that had been rejected, and that was moldy and white – it would be dosed with borax and glycerin, and dumped into the hoppers, and made over again for home consumption.

There would be meat that had tumbled out on the floor, in the dirt and sawdust, where the workers had tramped and spit uncounted billions of consumption germs. There would be meat stored in great piles in rooms; and the water from leaky roofs would drip over it, and thousands of rats would race about on it. It was too dark in these storage places to see well, but a man could run his hand over these piles of meat and sweep off handfuls of the dried dung of rats. These rats were nuisances, and the packers would put poisoned bread out for them; they would die, and then rats, bread, and meat would go into the hoppers together. This is no fairy story and no joke; the meat would be shoveled into carts, and the man who did the shoveling would not trouble to lift out a rat even when he saw one – there were things that went into the sausage in comparison with which a poisoned rat was a tidbit.

[5]There was no place for the men to wash their hands before they ate their dinner, and so they made a practice of washing them in the water that was to be ladled into the sausage. There were the butt-ends of smoked meat, and the scraps of corned beef, and all the odds and ends of the waste of the plants, that would be dumped into old barrels in the cellar and left there. Under the system of rigid economy which the packers enforced, there were some jobs that it only paid to do once in a long time, and among these was the cleaning out of the waste barrels. Every spring they did it; and in the barrels would be dirt and rust and old nails and stale water – and cartload after cartload of it would be taken up and dumped into the hoppers with fresh meat, and sent out to the public’s breakfast. Some of it they would make into “smoked” sausage – but as the smoking took time, and was therefore expensive, they would call upon their chemistry department, and preserve it with borax and color it with gelatin to make it brown. All of their sausage came out of the same bowl, but when they came to wrap it they would stamp some of it “special,” and for this they would charge two cents more a pound.


SAT Practice

In our math class, my classmates and I are working really hard to get prepared for the SAT test in October. We are doing a multitude of practices and finding techniques that are able to help us with the preparation. As I mentioned in the previous post, all of the Academy students were taken a two weeks long PSAT boot camp; however, we are still improving on the sections that we are struggling with. For example, one of the topics that some of the students are currently struggling with is the percentage change. We find it difficult with the percentage change word problems since we need to understand clearly about the context so that we can implement the formula to solve for the solution. To solve for the percentage change questions, first, we need to take the New value to subtract it to the Initial value, divide everything by the initial value and multiply it by 100.  

Percentage change = (New value – Initial value)/(Initial Value) = X * 100              

Khmer MUN

It was my first time to wear professional apparels and participated in the first-ever Khmer Model United Nations (MUN). On the 23rd of May, all the senior students were dressed up professionally to get ready for the whole day event. Three weeks before the event started, we discussed and came up with two suitable topics:  feeding the world growing billions and air quality control and pollution. “The delegate of Mexico please come up to give your speech,” I was so anxious when the chair called out my country to give my introduction speech to other delegates.

 

My introduction speech:

ជាបឋម គណៈប្រតិភូនៃប្រទេសមុិចសីុកូ សូមគោរពទៅដល់ប្រធានអង្គប្រជុំ គណៈប្រតិភូ ​​អ្នកសម្របសម្រូលកម្មវិធី  និងភ្ញៀវកេត្តិយសទាំងអស់ដែលមានវត្តមាននៅក្នុងអង្គកិច្ចប្រជុំពិភិក្សាគំរូ នៃអង្គការសហប្រជាជាតិជាទីគោរព!អង្គវិទិកាទាំងមូលជាទីគោរព! គណៈប្រតិភូនៃប្រទេសមុិចសីុកូមានចិត្តសោមនស្សរីករាយឥតឧបមាដែលមានឪកាសចូលរួមក្នុងអង្គប្រជុំមួយនេះ។  គណៈប្រតិភូនៃប្រ

ទេសមុិចសីុកូបានសង្កេតឃើញ ហើយយល់ច្បាស់ថា បញ្ហាដែលទាក់ទងជាមួយ ការចិញ្ចឹមកំណើនប្រជាជនក្នុងពិភពលោកគឺមានសារៈសំខាន់ដែលអង្គប្រជុំទាំងមូលគួរតែដាក់ចិត្តដាក់កាយដើម្បីពិភិក្សាអំពីបញ្ហាខាងលើនេះ។  នាពេលបច្ចុប្បន្ន មនុស្សជាង 1 ពាន់លាននាក់រងគ្រោះដោយភាពអត់ឃ្លាន។

នេះមានន័យថា មនុស្សម្នាក់ក្នុងចំណោមមនុស្ស 6 នាក់នៅជុំវិញពិភពលោកមិនបានទទួលអាហារគ្រប់គ្រាន់ដើម្បីផ្គត់ផ្គង់ការរស់នៅ ក៏ដូចជាទទួលទានអាហារដែលគ្មានផាសុខភាព​។

នៅក្នុងឆ្នាំ២០១៨នេះតែម្តង មនុស្សចំនួនប្រមាណជាជាង 36 លាននាក់នឹងស្លាប់ដោយសារភាពអត់ឃ្លាន! ប៉ុន្តែអ្វីដែលមិនគួរឲជឿនោះគឺ ជិតពាក់កណ្ដាលនៃអាហារទាំងអស់ដែលបានផលិតនៅជុំវិញពិភពលោកត្រូវបានបាត់បង់ឬខ្ជះខ្ជាយ ដោយសារតែទង្វើររបស់យើងរាល់គ្នា។

ដូច្នេះ តើគណៈប្រតិភូនៅក្នុងអង្គប្រជុំទាំងអស់ គួរតែអង្គុយចាំសង្កេតមើលស្ថិតិនៃការស្លាប់របស់មនុស្សកើនឡើង ឬក៏យើងពួតដៃគ្នាដើម្បីដោះស្រាយបញ្ហានេះ ? សូមគណៈប្រតិភូទាំងអស់ពិចារណាអំពីបញ្ហាដ៏ធំសម្បើមមួយនេះ។

ជាចុងក្រោយ គណៈប្រតិភូនៃប្រទេសមុិចសីុកូនឹងបើកចិត្តបើកកាយអោយទូលំទូលាយក្នុងការពិភិក្សា និងស្វែងរកនូវដំណោះស្រាយផ្សេងៗដែលអាចជួយផ្តល់នូវសុខសន្ថិភាព សុវត្ថិភាព និងយុត្តិធម៌ទៅកាន់ពិភពលោកទាំងមូល។ សូមអរគុណ។

It was such a great experience for to me to be a part of this amazing event. Even though I was struggled throughout the day but I did learn a bunch of stuff about Khmer MUN especially Khmer vocabulary.       

Physic Behind Superman

    In order for Superman to fly he needs to have a thrust force that equals his drag force. According to the Flight Mechanic, “Thrust is the forward force produced by the power plant that overcomes the force of drag.” The drag force is a force that acts in the opposite direction of the moving object through a fluid or gas. Moreover, in order for the Superman to balance himself when he moves up, down, right, or left his lift force needs to equal to his weight. “Lift is the force that directly opposes the weight of an object and holds the object in the air.” How does he overcome drag force? There is a speculative theory that actually being studied by some scientists. One of the theories is that gravity is carried by subatomic particles (particles much smaller than atoms) that are called gravitons. Scientists have not know is graviton do exist in our world or not, but they believe that gravitons travel in the wave as much as the light wave or electromagnetic wave. Therefore, if Superman has a way of generating gravitons within his own body, which means he could travel or fly close to the speed of the light by riding on the wave of gravity. Moreover, he could also create attractive force, and all matters on earth have a gravitational connection between them all. So, he could fly toward something by making a very strong gravitational pull towards it by sending a lot of gravitons to it. Even though this is just a theoretical concept, but scientists still continue to find the real explanation behind gravitons; gravitons might also be the clue for scientists or physicist to do a further investigation toward the concept of the flying human. In the other side, Superman was born on a massive planet called Krypton, a much larger planet compared to Earth. According to the comic, the Krypton’s dense core is unstable and about to explode so that they came up with a decision and sent Superman to our Earth. On earth, he would be the strongest human due to power that he has on earth, which is the power that he did not have back in Krypton. Moreover, Krypton is where its gravity is greater than our earth’s gravity, therefore he grew up to be stronger than normal human being. For example, if we someone that weighs 400 pounds on earth and we put them on the moon which has ⅙ of the Earth’s gravity, they would weigh around 67 pounds on the moon. Due to the gravity of the moon is less than our Earth, they would jump at a greater distance than they could jump on Earth. Same as Superman, if he came from a planet that has a higher gravitational force than earth, which means that his weight would be less on Earth so that it is easy for him to leap or fly between buildings. Moreover, if he were to lift a cup back in Krypton is would be as easy as lifting a car on earth due to the difference of the gravity. Clearly, both of the above theories are understandable, but the only thing that scientists need explain is to prove the concept of gravitons and the planet of Krypton. If gravitons do exist in our world, it is possible for the human to fly because we can somehow generate our gravitons so we could overcome the drag force and able to lift ourselves up.       

 

References:

http://www.flight-mechanic.com/thrust-and-drag/

http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/blogs/physics/2014/05/what-are-gravitons/

https://io9.gizmodo.com/5810945/the-physics-of-superman

https://prezi.com/ztqmpi4d1bvy/superman-vs-laws-of-physics/

https://stanford.edu/~jbboin/doc/superman.pdf

http://www.nuskool.com/learn/lesson/the-physics-of-superman/

https://io9.gizmodo.com/what-are-gravitons-and-why-cant-we-see-them-1643904640

 

Lack of Division of Labor Leads to Divorce

“It isn’t the money that predicts the risk of divorce – the cash stuff doesn’t matter,” said the author, Alexandra Killewald, a professor of sociology at Harvard University.

A breadwinner must be a male.

A homemaker must be a female.

These are many stereotypes that are deeply ingrained in our society today. Women are considered to be a housewife, although men are considered to be the wage earner.

The breadwinner is the one who earns money and supports the family, while homemaker is the one who manages the home.

Naturally, when we hear the term breadwinner, we consider of men, and while hearing about homemaker, we consider of women.

The division of housework is immensely important to every individual and family, and it is the main obstacle that might lead to divorce in a family. According to Live-Science, the divorce between spouses does not cause by money issue. Rather, it occurs because of the behaviors of both wife and husband. However, “Women are more likely to initiate divorce,” stated McKinley IRVIN. The key reason is that women are getting really exhausted from doing the domestic responsibilities.

“Traditionally, in a family, the wife would assume most of the household and childcare responsibilities, while the husband would have taken the responsibility of providing income.” Currently, there are more women starting to work outside of their home, and they also need to manage time between their job as well as doing housework; this is called the second shift of work. According to the Copyright-Land,  more women have gone out to work, and more have divorced. This is because when some women work outside the home, they often feel more independent, think more highly of themselves, and as soon as they start working, they want a new man.

Domestic responsibilities are the weapons of many marriages. Marriage usually begins with a willingness of both spouses to share them. Newlyweds, commonly doing most of the housework together such as cooking, washing, cleaning, and more. The weapons are starting to waylay the relationship when children arrive, and the domestic responsibilities starting to change. Children could create an immense need for the family, “both a greater need for income and greater domestic responsibilities.” Both spouses should be considered on their individual responsibility, men are more likely becoming the breadwinner while women are having no choices rather than doing housework. In most contemporary marriages, both spouses work outside the home for income, “ leaving the domestic responsibilities to whoever will volunteer.” Currently, there is a multitude of working women, because they end up doing most of the household work and take care of their children. Therefore, women would have a feeling that their husbands showing a lack of support.

A quote stated, “Don’t shower me with love and kisses -just whisper softly, I’ll do the dishes. This is where REAL LIFE happens in a marriage. When couples accomplish the tasks in life TOGETHER, they free up time to pursue other interests, enriching their relationship.” Both spouses need to be organized about the division of the responsibilities, and you just need to put yourself in someone else’s shoes. There will be many obstacles that could affect the relationship, yet the word “I’ll do it” will ways help to find the solution and able to generate true love.